on Change

I realized (or, rather, God revealed to me) last week that I don't like change, or respond to change very well. I was driving back from a meeting in Ohio when I admitted that the real reason that I don't want to get rid of my car is that I'm not ready for the change. My (beloved) super-Saturn was totaled (rather, I totaled it) a week before leaving for China. The stress and all of the activity before going meant that I didn't deal with it then. I also needed some sort of transportation when I returned. (My car is in this very strange totaled but drivable state). But soon after returning I was given a new car. A car that was better than my old one. A car with half as many miles on it, a CD player, and a drivers side window that rolls down. Honestly, though, I'd rather be driving my purple Saturn. I realized that the Saturn is the only thing that has been consistent in my life in the past five years. I've had so many different roommates, apartments, close friends, small groups, family, students, relationships, even colleagues and the church I've attended. God reminded me that He has been (and will) be consistent, and that dealing with change is a way that I can trust Him more fully. So, these days I'm thinking about getting rid of my Saturn (it's in my driveway right now), and being more aware of how the changes around me affect my daily life. And I'm walking into them with a sense of God's nearness. I also had my hair cut pretty short. I'm liking that change!

I've added more pictures of China. Check them out!

Currently Reading: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer